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Jul. 16th, 2014 | 07:18 pm
posted by: xvolph in ffmux

My room glows bright from the monitor light
Not a player to be seen
A game of idle faces,
And it looks too damn serene.

The mind is silent like these stagnant words inside
Couldn't keep it going, heaven knows I tried

Don't log back in, don't seek RP
Be the last you always said you'd be
Sureal, no feels, did't want let you go
Well, now you know

Let it go, let it go
Can't keep it up anymore
Let it go, let it go
Tab away and idle more

I don't know
What you're going to say
But let the story go,
MMO's never bothered me anyway

It's funny how some distance
Makes everything seem stale
The devotion once consumed me
But enabled me to fail

I've done all that I can do
To keep things going and stay true
Less fun, few lols, now just work for me, you see

Let it go, let it go
I am going on with my life
Let it go, let it go
I'll be elswhere online

Most have gone
So here I'll say
Let the story go

I've made mistakes which ran the game into the ground
The wiki might as well still stick around
But not forever, and I can say at last
All this time has been a blast,
But our time is in the past

Let it go, let it go
And I hope you'll find something new
Let it go, let it go
Nothing more I can do

Here I say
It will be okay
Let the story go
MMOs never bothered me anyway

So there you have it. You all have until 9/28/14 to tie up any loose ends and save any files, descs, etc that you want. I wish I could say I had the interest and drive anymore to keep the place going, but I've spent the last few weeks doing some serious soul searching and I've found exactly one thing about the state of the game: I no longer feel anything for it. I haven't missed it during my hiatus. The desire, the interest, and the fun are no longer there for me. It has become a form of work.

A lot of people have moved on with their lives and become so engrossed in work and family, not that I'm blaming real life for anything, but that's just how it goes. That's life. We've had 15+ years which is ages longer than the average life expectancy of most Mu*s. I can't tell you how much everyone's support has meant to me - to US, staff as a whole - over the long haul. Considering the fact I started this when I was 20, I'm 36 now, that's almost half my life spent maintaining a game which has slowly faded away. That said, I feel blessed to have had so much time and gotten to know so many of you.

Mu*s themselves are a dying outlet due in part to video games themselves becoming more dynamic and interactive, and ones that have cropped up over the past few years have had more trouble gaining a foothold and then standing on their own.

The reason I chose 9/28/14 as the closing date is because, after so long, it only feels right to bring it full circle and do it on the anniversary of our first opening. In the meantime, I have several requests:

1. After the game itself shuts down, I'd like to maintain the wiki as an archive for another 6 months. That way, if anyone has any leftover pages, images, and so forth that they want to copy and save, there's no rush. I'm going to copy everything onto my computer as well, and the history we've created may yet see light in another form. Not a Mu*, but for a long time, I've wanted to tailor it so it could work as a tabletop game setting, and this includes creation of character sheets for that purpose. This may or may not ever come to fruition, but the idea tickles me, and it gives the world a chance to live on in another form.

2. Some of you will have opinions and disagreements with this decision. I ask that you keep any negative commentary - be it @mails, bboard posts, or snarky lounge debates - to yourself. If you want to say something but you feel a need to preface it with 'I don't want to sound rude' or 'Please don't take this the wrong way but'... keep that you yourself, because it's not going to sound any other way. If people want to RP through the rest of this time for the sake of tying up loose ends, let them do it in peace.

3. The Converged world is my baby. Asking me to let someone else take over would be like asking me to put my child up for adoption and hope for the best. I've been down that road once already on here. No, thank you. While I appreciate peoples' interest and loyalty, I've said that once I step down this time, the game will be going with me.

This information will be crossposted to our Facebook page and livejournal. Those outlets may remain for a while longer once everything else is done, in case I do get around to revising the game's materials for tabletop use.

As for myself, those who know where to find me know where to find me. Very few people have my cell number, and I would ask those that have it to NOT share it. I do enjoy my privacy and that will never change. Otherwise, I can be found on FFXIV, Balmung server under the name of Ciel Wulfe (go figure, right?).

Thank you all again for all these years and the memories we've created together. You don't know how much it means.


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